I haven't write anything these days.
My students, Patrick, remind me that I haven't write anything these days.
Yesterday I go to a little saloon near my house just to neat my haircut. I met a boy, he's my neighbor.
He's in his school break, in my neighborhood there are not much kids. I used to see him just running around my neighborhood without something to be chased, just walk around with no purpose.
But anyway, that's why I was sad for him. I once smiled at him yesterday, while he was walking home from the mosque. He's a nice boy.
That night, I heard that one of his family member passed away. I feel so sad for him. You didn't see his face.
This year in my neighborhood, three people were passed away, one of them live right across my house. You might think that what the hell is going on in my neighborhood, is that a curse or superstition and what so ever, but that's not the point. People can go anytime without being sick in million years, and it really reminds me that everyone can go anytime I don't expect them to go. I never being leave by someone who is so close with me. I don't have any idea how is that feels like.
Today, I went to the church. Sometime I don't feel like wanna go and sit there. But for one and another reasons, I better go, so I go. Sometime, I miss how does it feel to sing for God, to pray.
When the other is praying, I'm listening to them, it's hard for me to do so. Why? I don't have a word.
I speak to Him in my heart, I'm feeling sad for my self, and I am screw up about what I have to do to Him.
I don't need those people who stand for the church talking much about Christianity and such but doing such things that were not expected by other people.
I'm not talking about my church, I'm talking about religion. Now, I know and feel why do people do not go to church anymore. And people who go to church regularly do not think that you are better and less sinner than those who do not go to church anymore. Christiany and Church is just an EXAMPLE.
