This Is Water

“The immedieate point of the fish story is merely that the most obvioust , ubiquitous, important realities are often the ones that the hardest to see and talk about” This Is Water by David Foster Wallace

It is so true that, that book is talking about life. It is hard to talking about life. I don’t like it when people telling me what to do about my life, they don’t know what am I going through. Sometimes I just think that I need to go see a phyciatrist. Life is such a depressing thing. Hardest to see and talk about.

 Even people always look at me like I am always not okay, especially in the morning, I look better at the midday. But don’t even trying to made fun of me at the midday after an hour wait for the bus. I may look calm but I’ve punch you in the face three times. Joking!LOL

 But anyway, life is getting better when I have an aim in these period of time. I would like to travelling and shopping around, go partying, meet new and old friends as well. I will make it by July go to Jogja, I seen it as a another heaven of mine where I can shop as much as I like, buying things for those persons that have been so good to me.

 And another thing, lovers. I don’t have one, and not searching for any. I’m feeling good, and even better when I went on a one night date with the best guy I ever hang out with. He has everything. But sometimes, life doesn’t go as you had planned. That’s why I never planned something like, I would married this guy in blah with blah and so the shit things like that. Too many broken love story I’ve heard. It didn’t make me scared though. It makes me realize that living solo is the best!
 And what about your parents? About the religion thing that said you should married and stuffs or stuffs?
Well, I’m not so relegious, to be honest. And I don’t know whether I’m gonna get married or not. But it’s just seem so good for me in this age not to think about it, and just go with whatever you like. Don’t have a relationship, thousands of friends, and dates sometimes.

 Sometimes, I just wonder why those guys trying to make a move on me, or trying to get a girlfriend, why are you so worried about your love live?
The polite answer might be, They need someone to share with, to take care of.

 You know what? It’s bullshit!
 The rash but true is, Any relationship will end up with sex.
 I got this covered truth about guys from my honest friends, men, and they’re so cool about life.

 So boys, what is your intention by chasing those girls? Love or Lust?
 I don’t play with that. Living solo is just the best for a woman that in her way on reaching the better life and close to the perfect life, like me. I won’t end up being virgin in my 40, believe me.


 P.s : This is one of the most OPENED thing I ever wrote. I don't care with what do you think. I have a right to write what I believe,and I never ask you to believe in what I believe.